Saturday, October 9, 2010

If I Were Being Honest.....

I would have to tell you this:

I AM GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BONKERS!!!!!

CERTIFIABLY INSANE!!!!

I feel like Steve Martin in "The Jerk"...you know the scene where his wife leaves him and he says:

"I don't need you, all I need is this lamp! This lamp and this chair..." and goes on and on and is eventually wandering down the street with all the things he doesn't need except for...

It is taking all my will power not to run up and down the street yelling "WHEN WILL OUR VISA COME?!" with random articles of furniture from our house as being all I need...but really all I need is OUR SON HOME!!!!

I have been trying to play it cool....trying to be the brave gal who can face anything and take anything...but I feel the facade crumbling....I don't feel cool at all...I feel like a

NUTTY NUTTERTON!!!

I have been searching the Internets again for answers....just like when we were waiting for our referral...which by the way was almost 15 months ago...I try not to linger on that most days because it would drive me to drink if I did but sometimes it pops into my head especially around the holidays (Happy Thanksgiving all!).

But alas, the answers aren't there...they are far away in Nairobi...sitting on a desk of some stranger who has the power in their hands to determine "yes, you will be a family" (I won't think about any other options) and waiting for said stranger to stamp our son's passport with the little, tiny stamp we need to bring him home is making me

LOOPY!!!!!!

Please let the visa come soon....please!

19 comments:

Shauna said...

Oh Rana, I don't blame you for feeling this way!!!!! You have so many of us wanting that Visa for you like yesterday X a year!!!!! It's coming it's coming ...............has to be!

emily and mike said...

I would be going insane if I were you too! This wait is just brutal and way too long. All for a stinkin' little stamp. Seriously, when you see it in his passport you are going to laugh at how ridiculously long it took to get there. But right now, I don't blame you if you are holding back tears. Its been a long road but you are so close. I'm hoping this Tuesday you will be getting a phone call saying that it is in!

xoxo

Janice said...

Bring on that visa!!!!! I should say BRING ON THAT VISA!!! Man enough waiting already, you guys have done way more than your fair share of that.

Fingers crossed for this week for you.

This morning I woke up early and realized just how close we were to Tues. (the day we might get visa news) and I felt the biggest butterfly flutter in my stomach. I'm hoping I'll just get the butterflies and not the vomit feeling.

Janice

andrea said...

Well... your opening line on this post almost beats "I am a walking time bomb of vomit right now", from the other day, but not quite :-) I can't even imagine how you have retained any sanity over this crazy long time period since your referral... a good sense of humour is obviously helping. It has to come soon... right?? (I'm sending all my positive energy your way...) A

Brendan and Mary said...

Hats off to you for not killing Yvan yet or checking yourself into the psych. ward! (It's nothing personal, Yvan...you're just the closest thing to a punching bag in her life ;). I've got my fingers crossed for this week too!!

COME ON STAMPER GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Better Good said...

Rana, I can't quite imagine how you are feeling... I have my own kind of "27 and 1/4 months waiting for a referral crazy" going on right now, and I feel for you and think about you guys so much. Hope you get some peace this weekend.
Laura

turgeonexpansion said...

I'm sending you my birthday wish today...you know what I want it to be, dear friend....

Anonymous said...

Just so you know, you were borderline crazy before any of this, so no biggie.

K_I_T_ said...

And just so you know, that was me!! Your not crazy, as if! But the process yes, can make you crazy...nutty...loopy...

You know Im waiting by the phone screening the caller id for your name to pop up, and say.....WE'RE GOING..!!!! I am sorry for this stupid wait. I agree, come on stamper guy....just stamp the stamp....seriously, or Im gonna pack my bags...get Rana and a few others, go on a road trip and come egg your office......;)

CinnamonOpus said...

Can you get your MP to send an email or make a call to Nairobi to see where things stand? It might nudge things along a little bit, or at least be someone else to do some of the heavy lifting for you.

wholetthishappen said...

I agree, go into your MP's office and tell them the whole story and ask if they can make a humanitarian plea that the CHC expedite this. Sect. 5.20 of the citizenship handbook states that children who are not living with their parents should be made a priority.

I feel like a freakin' broken record, but I will say it again. I am so sorry that you are living this. I wish I could make it better. I hope for nothing but fairytale ending to all of this. RIGHT NOW.

Love and hugs.

Tova

PS. I say you start drinking.

boltupright said...

Tova.... I think it's a little late to suggest that Rana *start* drinking. Heh.

And people, it's a STICKER, not a stamp. A Sticker is muchity much more complicateder than a stamp.

Oh wait... NO IT'S NOT.

Our immigration system, particularly as exercised by the HC in Nairobi, is undeniably insanity-inducing. I would probably be in the fetal position under a table by now if I were you, so hey, running down the street asking strangers when a visa will be issued doesn't sound completely crackers to me.

I gotta say, I think there is going to be an awful lot of bawling out here on the interwebs when you finally get the call. I'll go first.

hazel said...

Rana, I feel for you this Thanksgiving. Yet another blasted holiday without Ade. I don't blame you for feeling nuts....just don't run down the street naked...

VISA!!VISA!!VISA!!VISA!!

Heather blake said...

I'm thinking of you both, and sweet Ade.
Keep me posted
Heather

Liz said...

Let's go visa!

Sharla said...

I can see why you are going crazy. I so hope that you hear something s-o-o-n. (I didn't want to actually say that darned four letter work!)

Anonymous said...

Loopy, Nutso, Crazy ... all justified at this point. Was thinking of your family this weekend. So, hoping you will soon have a huge reason to give thanks.
Jen D

Claudia said...

You are TOTALLY way overdue on a one way ticket to crazytown. This is just apalling.

Kristin H said...

Thinking of you lots Rana, I can't wait to read your post, "we are on our way!" Sending lots of positive thoughts and wishes your way!!!