Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Nope, not this time either....

We got word that we are not in this group of referrals.

I am broken...spent...done.

When does one say enough?

50 comments:

Ramona said...

Still no words... but a hug which I know doesn't do anything at this time. I'm heart broken for you guys.
Ramona

Lisa and Jason said...

Oh Rana... There are no words... I'm so sorry.

Lisa (& Jason)

Julie said...

I'm so sorry Rana. Call me if you need an ear. I don't understand it, I really don't.

Anonymous said...

what?! I can't believe it! It was sooooooooo your turn already.... whatever happened to catching up to Jan 08 DTEs? argggg I'm feeling so frustrated for you
Susie

Anonymous said...

I am not sure what to say Sweetie. I look forward to the day when we can have our very own little family. I hope that all of the pain and sadness will soon be replaced with love and excitement. I believe that we are very close, and the future will bring us so much happiness. I am here with you.

Love Yvan.

Carolyn said...

As I already said- there are no words that can help at this point. I just want you to know that I am thinking of you and Yvan and that my heart goes out to you both. I am so sorry Rana- you deserve every happiness in the world- you will get it, but just not near as soon as you deserve.

Carolyn

Tova said...

I'm really sorry too. There are no words to say but bad ones.

Sad for you in BC....

Dianne said...

Oh Rana, I just don't know what to say. I'm so very sorry. Enough with the heartbreak already!

K_I_T_ said...

I am so sorry Rana...I literally have a pit in my stomach for you guys. Im really confused as to what is going on with that. It really makes me sad for you guys....

downes said...

What?!!! That makes no sense! I am so sorry...

Eileen said...

I am so sorry Rana. I cannot imagine your heartbreak. There are no words. You are in my thoughts.

((Hugs))

Eileen

lyndsey&kevin said...

I am SO very sorry for the two of you, there is a lot of people thinking of you and cheering you guys on. I hope you can feel the love I am sending from here.....
I wish things were faster!!
hugs lyndsey

D Dae said...

What? How is that possible?????

I am so sorry sweetie. Anything you need, please let me know.

Kendra said...

Rana, I am so sorry to hear this. You have to be close though so stay positive cause it will happen.

Littleone said...

What the.....heck! Well I was wrong in my previous words to you! I thought foresure you guys would be in this batch! I thought they where caught up till Jan......this journey is so darn hard and heart wrenching!

I am soooo sorry and I am sending all my love and well wishes and praying and hoping something is in the works for you both. We both know how long these things can sometimes take!

Big hugs,
Donna

Rhonda, Kristin, Eden said...

Oh my sweet Rana. Know that your are loved by many and soon your pain will be replaced with joy.

Hugs,
Rhonda

Stephanie said...

Oh Rana....I am crying as I type this....there is nothing I can type....sending you a big hug.

Steph

Danielle said...

Okay, so thankfully the kids are in bed because I just dropped a big 'ol F-bomb when I saw the title of this post. I am just in utter shock!! HOW can it not be your turn?!

I am SO frustrated for you guys!! ((Hugs)) although at this point, I'm sure that's not helping!

Thinking of you and hoping there's a referral coming for you VERY soon!!!

~ Danielle

andrea said...

How is that even possible!! I was so sure you would have happy news this week. I can only imagine how you are feeling... know that there are friends and strangers all over the country who are wishing happiness for you and Yvan. A

june said...

Maybe it was better back when we didn't know when referrals were coming... at least there wasn't this constant anticipation and letdown. And who knows, maybe there were no babies in this group, just older kids. I can't imagine how you are feeling, I'm so sorry. :(

Shannon said...

I am so sorry. This was not the news I was expecting to hear as I am sure you weren't as well. My heart aches for you.

Take care of yourself this weekend.

haze said...

The thing is, you can't say "enough." You just take a break away, collect yourself, allow the fresh wound to scab over your heart one more time, and wait for the next month's referrals.

Sadly, the many times broken heart does not heal fully month after month. There is only one medicine that will heal it properly, and we all know what that medicine is.

Hugs my friend. Enjoy the weekend with your mom.

Kristin Hickman said...

Rana, I am so sorry for you and Yvan. I can't believe it, from all the rumors swirling I thought all of you gals would be in this batch! I don't understand that you have been waiting 18 months and why that can't explain better to us the reason it is taking so long. I'm sure this weekend with your mom will be invaluable.
Thinking of you
Kristin

mary said...

I am so sorry....take care of yourselves this weekend.

Mary

BCMommy said...

Hazel said it best. Take time to try and get over this heartache. The cure for what ails you is on it's way...
Claire

Claudia said...

Oh, I am so so so sorry to hear this :(

Shell said...

(((Hugs)))

Julie said...

Thinking about you guys.

Natalie and Chris said...

i'm so sorry for you. It's not right. I wish I could say something to make you feel better, however hugs are always a good thing so here are some of my hugs for you ((( squeeze )))

Sherri said...

Oh man - I'm seriously shocked
( sounds stupid when saying that to you )

Really though I am...

I'm sorry...

Sherri

ps This child you're waiting for must be magnificently special! What a blessing you will all be to each other!

emily and mike said...

I'm so sorry Rana.

WTF.

emily

Anonymous said...

Rana I am just so sorry. It just isn't fair and I want to give you such a big hug.
love Natasha

Jody V. said...

I am so sorry to hear that. I am praying for you and your hubby.

Chad, Laura and Sara said...

Sometimes there are no words - know that I think of you often.

Laura

CinnamonOpus said...

Oh honey. I am so sorry you got bad news. There's nothing I can say that hasn't been said by all these good folks here, just... Big hugs and lots of them from us.

Give me a call if you want to vent.

tobink said...

Oh no Rana. This can't be. No. No. No. I am so very sorry.

Karen T.

Kristen and Dave said...

What!!!??? There are no words - only virtual hugs. I'm so sorry Rana and Yvan.

Kristen

Karen said...

UGH! I am so sorry to hear that!

karen

Janice said...

Ugh!! The right thing to say just isn't coming to me. I guess, like so many others, I just want it to be your turn. Please, please may it be soon.

bcbevans said...

Rana

I follow all you long time waiters with anticipation and just can't believe what I read. Know we are all thinking of you and praying for you. Stay strong however you can and when you can't stand this journey, sit... and then crawl and just keep moving forward day by day... hour by hour... minute by minute...Don't give up! You have come so far!!

Hugs
Crystal

Tracey said...

Rana and Yvan..all I can do is send you a HUGE cyber-hug. The sun is supposed to shine this weekend in Vancouver, use the time to relax and look after each other,
Tracey

Gabrielle said...

It is so unfair for you to be tortured like this, but luckily, you have a great partner by your side who will hold you up until your child comes home.

Deb

Darrell and Jess said...

me too... nothing to say. drinks next week?!

Tova said...

Hey Rana,

I know I already commented, but are you in my 'hood this weekend? (Vancouver?) I'm around on Sunday afternoon and Monday. Do you want to meet up? If not, I understand.

Tova

Kirsten said...

I am so sorry...I am sending positive thoughts your way. You are a pillar of strength no matter how you feel.

Hugs,
Kirsten

BCMommy said...

You know you are so getting a call very, very soon, right?? After reading Hazel's blog today, I immediately checked yours, as I see you are only 4 days behind.
Don't lose hope, Rana!!!!
You are almost at the finish line!!!
Woo hooo!!!!! I can't wait to celebrate with you!
Claire

Dallas, Lisa, Zane, and Ayana said...

Rana, I am soooo sad for you.
***HUGS***
Lisa

Anonymous said...

So so sorry to hear this news. We too waited over 18 months for a referral and it's brutal. It really will happen one day and the next thing you know you'll be off to Ethiopia. We're praying for you

Megan said...

Rana I am so very sorry.

Anonymous said...

Dear Rana,
So, so sorry that wonderful folks like you and Yvan are asked to endure so much.
Just a little more strength and a litte more patience and soon your life will be forever changed.
All the best - hang in there.
jen & cam