Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Muwah! I love You All!!!
Oh big hugs and kisses to you all!!!
Thank you so much for the lists!
I can't even tell you how much I appreciate it - like ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((this)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) much!
Now, I am going to compile them all and start my shopping.
My mom is coming to town for a visit next week and I am going to put her and Yvan's momma to work helping me shop!!! Hee!
Also, ordered a toddler bed that converts to a double bed and a dresser for Ade's room.
This is a huge step people! It was so hard to press the "confirm your order" button because I am used to living in a state of paranoia but I did it!!!
P.S. Shelley - I loved all your emails and your excel spread sheet -AMAZING!
Seriously, I love you all so much!!!
Thank you so much for the lists!
I can't even tell you how much I appreciate it - like ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((this)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) much!
Now, I am going to compile them all and start my shopping.
My mom is coming to town for a visit next week and I am going to put her and Yvan's momma to work helping me shop!!! Hee!
Also, ordered a toddler bed that converts to a double bed and a dresser for Ade's room.
This is a huge step people! It was so hard to press the "confirm your order" button because I am used to living in a state of paranoia but I did it!!!
P.S. Shelley - I loved all your emails and your excel spread sheet -AMAZING!
Seriously, I love you all so much!!!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
What Took So Long To Say We Passed?
What took me so long to post that we had passed...well let me tell you.
Our court date was actually on Monday, May 31. Originally we had been told it was Sunday, May 30 but we knew court wasn't open on Sundays and when we asked about this they told us our actual date would be the Monday.
Monday came and we were anxious!!
Ummmmm...I was actually crawling the walls...I think Carolyn and I set a record pace for the number of emails we have sent each other in a given day in the first 2 hours of the morning.
Finally, about 10:30a.m. I called Yvan and asked him to call and find out if there was news on court.
He phoned me back and said he was told "you had court today and everything was really good but they have set another date for tomorrow because the consent from MOWA was not in."
O.k. we knew this could happen and both of us were o.k. with it. We were reassured this was very good news.
Later in the afternoon I decided, because as a woman it's my right, that I needed to talk to our agency myself...ask some more indepth questions (ha, not sure what they would have been it was just an excuse to call them)
Call them I did and they said "oh after we talked to Yvan we talked to R and she said the consent from MOWA is there it just came in after your court appearance so that is why they re-booked you for tomorrow. We will call you tomorrow once we have the actual confirm that the judge has officially passed our case"
OK - this is good I thought. And you would say I would relax a bit and you would be right.
Then Tuesday morning came and we thought "right, we should hear by 10:30a.m. Well, that time came and went...so I made Yvan phone again (I was too scared in case it was bad news).
No luck - they hadn't heard anything. So, I emailed and said "is there anyway you can call them or text or email" and they said "we already tried but can't get a hold of them"
By 3:30 I was distraught - what if they changed their minds and decided we weren't going to be good parents, what if the judge got really sick and couldn't come to court...what if, what if what if!
Wednesday morning I was so sad.....I didn't sleep very well...I got up and was making myself breakfast thinking "let it go, you have to just let it go...what will be will be" This has been my new mantra for the last - oh - 5 1/2 months...
And then at 7:55a.m. .....THE PHONE RANG!
I looked at it and it had our agency's name on it and I just about passed out!
So, I said 'hello' all shaky and nervous like....and they said right away "CONGRATULATIONS MOM, YOU PASSED COURT! YOU AND YVAN ARE OFFICIALLY PARENTS"
I must have been squawking pretty loud because Yvan came downstairs and I said "YOU'RE A DAD" and he started crying which in turn got me crying (because until then I was in a state of shock) and I think we almost got our Agency's rep crying too.
After that it was a whirlwind of phone calls to Moms and dads, and siblings and Aunties...and oh boy did the Mommas cry :)
This day was pretty much the best day of our lives.
I want to say THANK YOU to all you who emailed me leading up to court and just before we shared our news.
I had wanted to post what was happening as it was happening but I was so scared of jinxing anything....I was honestly emotionally paralysed and just couldn't answer an email or make a post until we knew 100% what was going on.
And you waited.
The adoption community is like nothing else in the world. Full of love and support!
So, many of you were thinking of us and sending prayers and positive thoughts. Some of you were worried we hadn't passed and were reaching out to let us know you were there for us!
THANK YOU!!
I couldn't have made it through this without all of you - even though I haven't been blogging much and had taken a step back from reading other blogs too...you were still there for us!
Amazing! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
Our court date was actually on Monday, May 31. Originally we had been told it was Sunday, May 30 but we knew court wasn't open on Sundays and when we asked about this they told us our actual date would be the Monday.
Monday came and we were anxious!!
Ummmmm...I was actually crawling the walls...I think Carolyn and I set a record pace for the number of emails we have sent each other in a given day in the first 2 hours of the morning.
Finally, about 10:30a.m. I called Yvan and asked him to call and find out if there was news on court.
He phoned me back and said he was told "you had court today and everything was really good but they have set another date for tomorrow because the consent from MOWA was not in."
O.k. we knew this could happen and both of us were o.k. with it. We were reassured this was very good news.
Later in the afternoon I decided, because as a woman it's my right, that I needed to talk to our agency myself...ask some more indepth questions (ha, not sure what they would have been it was just an excuse to call them)
Call them I did and they said "oh after we talked to Yvan we talked to R and she said the consent from MOWA is there it just came in after your court appearance so that is why they re-booked you for tomorrow. We will call you tomorrow once we have the actual confirm that the judge has officially passed our case"
OK - this is good I thought. And you would say I would relax a bit and you would be right.
Then Tuesday morning came and we thought "right, we should hear by 10:30a.m. Well, that time came and went...so I made Yvan phone again (I was too scared in case it was bad news).
No luck - they hadn't heard anything. So, I emailed and said "is there anyway you can call them or text or email" and they said "we already tried but can't get a hold of them"
By 3:30 I was distraught - what if they changed their minds and decided we weren't going to be good parents, what if the judge got really sick and couldn't come to court...what if, what if what if!
Wednesday morning I was so sad.....I didn't sleep very well...I got up and was making myself breakfast thinking "let it go, you have to just let it go...what will be will be" This has been my new mantra for the last - oh - 5 1/2 months...
And then at 7:55a.m. .....THE PHONE RANG!
I looked at it and it had our agency's name on it and I just about passed out!
So, I said 'hello' all shaky and nervous like....and they said right away "CONGRATULATIONS MOM, YOU PASSED COURT! YOU AND YVAN ARE OFFICIALLY PARENTS"
I must have been squawking pretty loud because Yvan came downstairs and I said "YOU'RE A DAD" and he started crying which in turn got me crying (because until then I was in a state of shock) and I think we almost got our Agency's rep crying too.
After that it was a whirlwind of phone calls to Moms and dads, and siblings and Aunties...and oh boy did the Mommas cry :)
This day was pretty much the best day of our lives.
I want to say THANK YOU to all you who emailed me leading up to court and just before we shared our news.
I had wanted to post what was happening as it was happening but I was so scared of jinxing anything....I was honestly emotionally paralysed and just couldn't answer an email or make a post until we knew 100% what was going on.
And you waited.
The adoption community is like nothing else in the world. Full of love and support!
So, many of you were thinking of us and sending prayers and positive thoughts. Some of you were worried we hadn't passed and were reaching out to let us know you were there for us!
THANK YOU!!
I couldn't have made it through this without all of you - even though I haven't been blogging much and had taken a step back from reading other blogs too...you were still there for us!
Amazing! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Uber Cute! Like Really Cute! Too Cute For Words!
Those are the words our friends have used to describe our baby boy!!!
Lisa and Jason and Jenn and Dave are in Ethiopia picking up their sweet kids and they got to see Ade!!!
Jenn's email yesterday morning had me crying tears of joy! I actually scared Yvan when I yelped very loudly when I saw the email from Jenn in my inbox with the title "Your Son is Amazing!"
Oh, my heart is busting! I can't wait to get over there and see him FOR MYSELF!!
They said he entertained them with his smiles and giggles and he is a healthy weight and saw no signs of him being sick anymore. He didn't play shy at all :)
That's our boy! Outgoing like his momma and entertaining like his poppa!!
Oh I get all teary-eyed just writing this post!!
I am so happy our agency allows families who are picking up their kids to see other families kids who are in the foster home!
Lisa would have given Ade his care package - which means so much! He won't know he is looking at his future parents in the photo album we sent but some how just knowing he has it - well.....it makes me feel that much more connected to him.
Thank you to Jenn and Lisa for taking time to see our boy and to email us with a much anticipated update!!
Much love,
Rana
-I am a giant pile of love again this weekend
Lisa and Jason and Jenn and Dave are in Ethiopia picking up their sweet kids and they got to see Ade!!!
Jenn's email yesterday morning had me crying tears of joy! I actually scared Yvan when I yelped very loudly when I saw the email from Jenn in my inbox with the title "Your Son is Amazing!"
Oh, my heart is busting! I can't wait to get over there and see him FOR MYSELF!!
They said he entertained them with his smiles and giggles and he is a healthy weight and saw no signs of him being sick anymore. He didn't play shy at all :)
That's our boy! Outgoing like his momma and entertaining like his poppa!!
Oh I get all teary-eyed just writing this post!!
I am so happy our agency allows families who are picking up their kids to see other families kids who are in the foster home!
Lisa would have given Ade his care package - which means so much! He won't know he is looking at his future parents in the photo album we sent but some how just knowing he has it - well.....it makes me feel that much more connected to him.
Thank you to Jenn and Lisa for taking time to see our boy and to email us with a much anticipated update!!
Much love,
Rana
-I am a giant pile of love again this weekend
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Update on Ade
We just got news that Ade is doing much better today and has been transferred back to the Foster home!!!
The foster home administrator was very pleased at how well he was responding to treatment...he will be getting 5 injections of antibotics, one each day for the next 5 days!
We are relieved but still so anxious!!!
Baby boy we can't wait to get you home!!!
Thank you to everyone for your kind words, prayers and positive energy!! It is working - keep it coming!
The foster home administrator was very pleased at how well he was responding to treatment...he will be getting 5 injections of antibotics, one each day for the next 5 days!
We are relieved but still so anxious!!!
Baby boy we can't wait to get you home!!!
Thank you to everyone for your kind words, prayers and positive energy!! It is working - keep it coming!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Vulnerable...
...that is how I would describe this next part of our wait.
The first part, the waiting for a referral bit, was stressful because it took so long and it seemed like it might never happen.
Then it did!
And we saw our son's face for the first time.
We both carry pictures with us to show people
To look at whenever we want.
We have photos of him around our house so we can gaze into his gorgeous big, brown eyes and dream of the day we are holding him in our arms.
I don't think either of us feel stressed anymore or at least it is a different kind of stress - preparation stress.
We are relieved to know who are son is.
Excited to see how he will fit into our life with us and how we will fit into his.
But vulnerable, because now we know him.
We love him!
He is ours!
You don't realize how much you love this little person until you get a phone call saying he is sick and has been taken to the hospital and they aren't sure what is wrong just that he wasn't himself.
The love, it washed over us both and the fear that we might lose this little guy before we even got to meet him brings tears of worry, sadness and anxiousness.
We feel vulnerable while we wait by the phone for an update - an afternoon and an evening pass...the morning comes and we get the news we hoped we would hear....
He is improving but still not sure what is wrong.
More answers will come tomorrow.
The next day comes and we are told he has improved even more and they know he has pneumonia and are treating him for it.
Vulnerable because we can't be there to hold his hand.
Let him know we love him.
Hug him and cuddle him and tell him he will be alright!
Helpless because there is nothing we can do from here.
Thankfully he is the hands of people who care!!! They are doing everything they can to make sure he is taken care of and loved for us.
We were handling the wait to bring him home well, it had only been a month since we saw him for the first time...we thought it won't be so bad...this wait to bring him home.
But now...all we want is to bring him home tomorrow!
Vulnerable because we have to be patient and know that he is doing much, much better but still yearning to be with him.
Vulnerable because we know, so far, we are lucky...he is alive.
Vulnerable when we hear the news of another family whose sweet baby boy didn't make it. We send that family our deepest condolences and heartfelt sympathies because no one should ever have to go through that. Losing a child. Beyond comprehension.
The love we have for our children before we even meet them...that love! Is very strong!!!
Until he is safe and sound in our arms...the next few months will have us feeling vulnerable.
The first part, the waiting for a referral bit, was stressful because it took so long and it seemed like it might never happen.
Then it did!
And we saw our son's face for the first time.
We both carry pictures with us to show people
To look at whenever we want.
We have photos of him around our house so we can gaze into his gorgeous big, brown eyes and dream of the day we are holding him in our arms.
I don't think either of us feel stressed anymore or at least it is a different kind of stress - preparation stress.
We are relieved to know who are son is.
Excited to see how he will fit into our life with us and how we will fit into his.
But vulnerable, because now we know him.
We love him!
He is ours!
You don't realize how much you love this little person until you get a phone call saying he is sick and has been taken to the hospital and they aren't sure what is wrong just that he wasn't himself.
The love, it washed over us both and the fear that we might lose this little guy before we even got to meet him brings tears of worry, sadness and anxiousness.
We feel vulnerable while we wait by the phone for an update - an afternoon and an evening pass...the morning comes and we get the news we hoped we would hear....
He is improving but still not sure what is wrong.
More answers will come tomorrow.
The next day comes and we are told he has improved even more and they know he has pneumonia and are treating him for it.
Vulnerable because we can't be there to hold his hand.
Let him know we love him.
Hug him and cuddle him and tell him he will be alright!
Helpless because there is nothing we can do from here.
Thankfully he is the hands of people who care!!! They are doing everything they can to make sure he is taken care of and loved for us.
We were handling the wait to bring him home well, it had only been a month since we saw him for the first time...we thought it won't be so bad...this wait to bring him home.
But now...all we want is to bring him home tomorrow!
Vulnerable because we have to be patient and know that he is doing much, much better but still yearning to be with him.
Vulnerable because we know, so far, we are lucky...he is alive.
Vulnerable when we hear the news of another family whose sweet baby boy didn't make it. We send that family our deepest condolences and heartfelt sympathies because no one should ever have to go through that. Losing a child. Beyond comprehension.
The love we have for our children before we even meet them...that love! Is very strong!!!
Until he is safe and sound in our arms...the next few months will have us feeling vulnerable.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
I Am A Big Pile of Love
It's true!
One great, big, giant pile of love!
I didn't know I could love someone so much who I haven't even met yet!
But I do!
People told me that it would all go away once I saw THAT picture...I wasn't really a believer!
Now I am!!
In one giant whoosh of outward breath all the stress, anxiety, sadness, anger, and frustration left.
It left! It went! Away!
I feel like the Grinch whose heart was 2 sizes too small...
One great, big, giant pile of love!
I didn't know I could love someone so much who I haven't even met yet!
But I do!
People told me that it would all go away once I saw THAT picture...I wasn't really a believer!
Now I am!!
In one giant whoosh of outward breath all the stress, anxiety, sadness, anger, and frustration left.
It left! It went! Away!
I feel like the Grinch whose heart was 2 sizes too small...
but went on to grow 3 sizes that day I saw our baby boy's face!
I didn't know!
Why didn't you warn me? I mean, you did, but really you should have shook me until I believed.
I know you are right! I wouldn't have known until I actually felt it.
And oh boy!!! Do I feel it!
In fact...it is all I can do to contain myself from shouting out as I am walking around the neighbourhood with the dogs "WE HAVE A BABY BOY!!!" or "NEXT SUMMER WE WILL HAVE A BABY IN STROLLER WHEN WE GO WALKING!"
I have so much love that I even forgive this lady for not telling me I had concealer under my eyes that day. Ha!
Seriously, I will be that weird lady just randomly telling people I have a son and whipping out his picture and chasing them down the street asking them if they want to see it!
I feel alive again! I feel like myself again!
I know it isn't over yet - I know this next stretch might be hard too!
But I know that the next 6 or so months will end and he will be in our arms...forever!
Sigh!
Oh the Love I have!
I feel like this!
*Edit* - I realize this song was written for Obama and you are probably all "What the heck is this girl on? This song is about Obama. She was crazy before she got her referral and now she is even crazier!"
But listen to the chorus...it could apply to many things, really it could..if you wanted it too..which I do! So there!
I went to sleep last night
Tired from the fight
I've been fighting for tomorrow
All my life
Yea I woke up this morning
Feeling brand new
'Cause the dreams that I've been dreaming
Has finally came true
It's a new day
It's a new day
It's a new day
It's a new day
It's a new day
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