The last 3 weeks have been accompanied by a sense of relief....relief because after months and months of waiting we finally passed court.
But the wait isn't over yet. On no, not by a long shot.
In fact, this wait, the one we are in now, the visa wait...it is gearing up to be the hardest wait yet I do believe.
Because there isn't anything I can do. Since we got our referral there has been paperwork and emails, and then more paperwork followed by more emails with some phone calls thrown in for good measure and more paperwork and...well you get the picture.
Now, I actually have to sit by and just wait without doing something.
Don't get me wrong.
There are things to be done.
But the things needing to be done aren't things that pertain to me calling, emailing, filling out paperwork and repeating for months on end.
That is all done for now.
Now I just sit and wait for someone to call me and say "You can go get your son".
At that point I will be able to start calling, emailing, and filling out paperwork again for flights, and hotels etc....
...but for now I can only wait.
Oh we are getting his room ready, the house ready, the yard ready...and that is all fine stuff to be doing.
However, since July of last year I have been calling and emailing and filling out paperwork and it made me feel like I was doing my part for my child who is half way around the world being cared by others.
As stressful as it was, it made me feel like I was a part of the process.
I could do some more calling and emailing I suppose to say "Have you heard anything yet?"
But honestly, I think those people need at least 3 1/2 weeks free of me calling and emailing and insisting I send paperwork!
Now, well now I feel like my hands are truly tied....and here I sit, at my computer, searching the blogs, message boards and the Internets for something to make me feel useful.
So if anyone needs someone to do some calling or emailing or filling out paperwork..well you know where to find me.