Alright, this adoption process has made me realize that I may have an addictive personality after all. I never thought I did - I never drank too much, smoked, shopped too much (quit laughing) or played video games (eewwww)etc.
But I have come to realize that I may have a few little issues- and well the first step is admitting you have a problem!!
1a.) Message board/Blogs - I count these as one addiction (it makes me feel better about myself). I am part of a wonderful on-line adoption community. This community is a great place for support, advice, general info and friendship - when I first joined the group I checked the message board once or twice a week - hmmmmm....ya now I check it once or twice an hour - I can't stop myself before I know it I have signed in and am perusing the different areas...usually not much has changed - but the glee when I see a new post is probably not healthy. It is my link to sanity sometimes. There is also the anticipation that someone will have posted about their recent referral - this is always gratifying and I love seeing dreams of family come true - but truth be told I am just as happy because it means that we are one step closer as well! The line in front of us has gotten just a wee bit shorter.
1b.) Now, after I check the message boards I have to check some of the wonderful blogs I follow of fellow adoptive moms! I love to read about the events in their lives and see how they are handling/coping with the wait. Some of these people I have never met, yet I feel a deep kinship to them - like we are soul sisters! I check these blogs for sure once a day. Sometimes I comment sometimes I don't, but I always feel like I am not alone in this process. Thanks ladies!
2. Mah Jong - That is right Mah Jong - not any Mah Jong - online Mah Jong! I can't get enough of it...when I need a break from work (the stacks are piling on my desk oy-vey) and really feel like I shouldn't check the message boards (again!) I play Mah Jong - I just like saying it MAH JONG! There is one game in particular that I am obsessed with - Cat and Mouse - and the reason for this is because it is one of the few games I can't finish - it beats me every time - aaaarrrrgggh! If you want to see what I am talking about click on - Mah Jong - I always use the Explorer symbol for my tiles - don't even try Bridging or the Castle no one has a chance.
Note - Mah Jong is not the same as a video game - it is much more sophisticated and involves great attention to detail and an eagle eye to match the tiles.!!
A Bad Habit
When I was young - much younger than now - I used to chew my nails. My momma tried everything to get me to stop. And I do mean everything!!! I mean I even chewed thru the really bad tasting nail polish that they use to make....I chewed my nails until they bled. Then one day in my early 20's I decided to stop. Really it is a very horrible habit...it looks awful...it isn't sanitary... and your hands look frightful!!
I have started again - since our dossier went to Ethiopia - I have started AGAIN!!! Being much older and wiser now - I don't chew them right to the bottom - but I am still chewing them! I hate it but I don't know how to stop - I think the only thing that might make me quit is a referral and a child home - in our house! However, I am open to any and all suggestions so feel free to pass them along!
So, there you have it - Two Addictions and a Bad Habit!