Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Sleepless in Saskatchewan

When I was in my 20's I used to suffer from insomnia...many, many nights of going to bed trying to get a good night's sleep to no avail. Occasionally, I still have the odd night where I can't sleep but I haven't had on in quite a while.

Last night we went to bed pretty early - around 11 p.m. We chatted for awhile and talked about the days events. Yvan promptly fell asleep as he so often does. Ummm....why can guys fall asleep so easily...and usually sitting up, holding a beverage, the remote and all while petting the cat too? I don't get it...

Anyways, I tossed and turned, and turned and tossed. So, I decided to get up. As I usually do, I went downstairs to watch T.V. I turn on the tube and what do I see...Sleepless In Seattle.....aaaaah there is nothing like a Meg Ryan movie to make a girl feel good. Sleepless in Seattle, When Harry Met Sally, You Got Mail...all make me happy! As does a good Jane Austen movie...oh Sense and Sensibility, Pride and Prejudice....sweet calmness overcomes me.

I think the reason I was unable to sleep was because I processed a lot of information yesterday. I have been feeling antsy. I have restless mind syndrome. I have been turning over and over in mind about how we can give back...how we can make a difference. I had been giving serious consideration to doing a humanitarian expedition with Canadian Humanitarian Organization for International Relief (CHOIR). I have been talking to Yvan and to Sandra from CHOIR over the past couple of weeks. Yvan was 100% behind me to go...however...something didn't feel right about it.

First, the only expedition I would be able to go on was in October. Leaving almost 11 months after our dossier landed in Ethiopia. I felt that this might not be the best time to go as we might be very close to getting a referral (fingers crossed). I also didn't want to go to Ethiopia without Yvan...this is something we have both really been looking forward to and I wanted to share the first step on our child's home soil with him. So, I called and talked to our agency...after a lengthy conversation and much needed information my decision was almost final. I just needed to talk to CHOIR. I wanted to know if they would allow us to do some work for them if we went to Ethiopia a week early when it was time to go get our child. The answer was yes! They do that stuff all the time for couples and families. It was just what I needed to make my decision. Yvan and I will go together and spend some time visiting orphanages, teaching English...whatever they will have us do.

I think the other reason I was buzzing was because I spent 3 hours talking adoption with Natasha last night...it was good to really sit and talk and talk and talk some more! I need this alot...it is good to get all the stuff out of my mind and to have someone tell me they understand or have been thru that or are going thru it too. I have met a wonderful group of women and their spouses and families during this process and I am ever thankful for each and every one of them. You all know who you are ;)

So, with all the activity of the day...I just couldn't get my brain to shut off come bed time. Thanks to Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks...I was able to escape to a sweet fantasy land and managed to get tired enough to go to bed and have a good night's sleep.

10 comments:

Dianne said...

You have excellent taste in movies :)

That's a great idea - going a week early.

Ricki said...

Oh you guys will have so much fun working with Canadian Humanitarian! It was one of the best things I have ever done. Also, when I was there, there was an adoptive mom with her little girl that came along with us to many of the places. So your plan sounds perfect to me!
Ricki

Ramona said...

I love Meg Ryan! And, I have a sleep disorder, so I'm awake a lot at night and if I lived closer, I'd have come and watched with you!
Maybe we will travel at the same time and can work together in Ethiopia- on our minds and hearts too...
Ramona

Anonymous said...

Hey Rana! I had a great time talking with you lastnight! I also had a really hard time letting my brain shut off, but atleast I had more interesting things to think about! See you soon.
Natasha

The Warren Family said...

My husband and I contacted them and plan to travel early and do the same thing!!

Tanya said...

I had no idea that was possible! Thanks for sharing.

I am a huge Jane Austen fan as well...

Glad you were finally able to get to sleep.

Rhonda & Kristin said...

Oh Rana,

Going with CH was one of my best decisions in my life. It was absolutely life changing!! And to be able to go and work with the kids there and devote time to hanging with them was the best. I hope it works and you can go, I think it's a must if people can swing it!

Rhonda

Shannon & Dan said...

I'm glad that you were able to come to some peace in your decision. That is a great idea to go early and experience it with Yvan. It will be something special between the two of you before you become the three of you.

Take care,
Shannon

Ricki said...

Aww, I'm bummed I missed your call. I am working evenings all week...blech. But if you get a chance, I will be home on the weekend...I'll love to chat!
Ricki

haze said...

That's a great idea! You are so fortunate to be able to do that.