Friday, October 23, 2009

4:42 A.M...

...is the time it was when I woke up this morning.

Wondering.... worrying...running thru the different scenarios in my head...

When will this end?

What if this happens?

Or that happens?

When we will hear anything ?

Willing myself to stay positive...

I am tired.

I need some sleep.

I would like to get that sleep now because I know it might be lacking a bit once he comes home.

Doesn't seem like it's going to happen....

4:42 A.M.

17 comments:

Connie said...

Oh, I remember going through that stage and losing so much sleep wondering and worrying. Friends told me I wouldn't get any sleep once our baby was home (boy were they right) and I just replied with "That's ok, because I'm not getting any sleep now anyway!"

Just hold on...he'll be in your arms soon!

Stephanie said...

Every part of this process is sooooo hard!!!

Hoping you get good news today!!

Steph :-)

Chad, Laura and Sara said...

Oh sweet girl, I have been up at that same time many mornings over the past few months. This whole journey is so hard and so unfair. Try to keep your faith and know that when your precious boy is placed into your arms for the first time that a miracle take place - and you will not only be witness to it, but a part of it.

Thoughts,
Laura

Heidi said...

It will happen Rana, but I know I wouldn't be sleeping either. Sending positive vibes and ((hugs)) your way.

Heidi

Dianne said...

((hugs))

hazel said...

The end is in sight, Rana. And you know you have us all to hold your hand and (try to!) keep you sane every step of the way. That support works both ways, thank God.

D Dae said...

I had many, many nights like that. Take care, and try to at least rest. I found watching Harry Potter movies helped me relax and I ended up falling asleep on the couch to those movies many times. It helps get your mind on to something else so you can fall asleep. {hugs}

Brendan and Mary said...

Oh Rana! I knew where that post was going as soon as I saw the title! Back to that martini stage that you were at 20 months...have a drink this weekend and try to relax a little. This just sucks!!

((hugs))

Mary

Gaunt Family said...

This post made me think of my pregnancy, where, by the end, I longed for one night of not having to get up out of bed to pee. You are expecting, my friend. You are supposed to be sleepless.And by the way, it is going to happen.

Tova said...

I had the same thought as Keltie. This is normal mommy pains. Worry, lack of sleep, anxiety. Apparently it's all normal. I still don't feel normal yet. In the meantime have you heard of a lovely little supplement called Rescue Remedy? I couldn't have survived either adoption or pregnancy without it. Heck, I can't survive life without it. :)

Robynhood said...

Hang in there Rana, it is coming!! He will be home with you soon... just keep believing that all will work out and very very soon!!!

Gabrielle said...

Ugh. So difficult to wait and worry. I just wish it was all over for you and Yvan and you were losing sleep for GOOD reasons.

Rhonda, Kristin, Eden said...

at 4:42 PM yesterday, I thought I gave you a pep talk that this ends! Were you not listening??? Just kidding, I remember how hard this is/was, that court date I bet has already been scheduled!

Darrell and Jess said...

With all the court news you're posting lately I've been feeling anxious for you.... aaaahhhh!!!!

Ramona said...

Oh Rana. I so want this stage to be over for you and I can't wait for you to have your baby boy in your arms. This wait is just too long and your little boy needs his mommy and daddy too.
Ramona.

natasha said...

Oh Rana, I pray that you hear something soon. Thinking of you and can't wait to see a post with some good news about Ade!!!!!
Natasha

darci said...

oh ugh..hang in there.