Is it really July?
It can't be...my calendar must be wrong...but no...yesterday was Canada Day which is always July 1st and has been for a long time now!
Oh my...it is July!
6 months of 2009 have already passed....ugh! 6 months until we hit 2010...Double ugh!
Where did the time go?
It seems...looking back...that it went by very quickly.
But as I sit here typing this post...I know that each day of the last 6 months felt like an eternity.
I see the summer (or what is left of it) ahead of me and I think to myself "How am I going to get thru each and every never ending day?"
In a little less than 5 months I will turn 38.
38 seems to be coming so fast...I don't want it to come yet...I am not ready...I wanted to be a mother before I turned 38.
Yet, this day seems to be looming in front of me...I look at the clock and I swear to you it seems as if the minute hand isn't moving. Like time is standing still!
I used to have dreams of trying to run really fast to get away from something but it was near impossible to get moving.
Now I have dreams I am trying to run to something but the road ahead keeps stretching out in front of me and every step I take feels like I have lead weights on my feet.
Did I mention that I will be 38 this year? Oh yeah..I did....38............
How can life feel like it is whizzing by yet taking so long at the same time?
Have you ever felt like that?
I keep myself busy.
My schedule is full but each day, week, month drags with anticipation, wanting, need, and sometimes even desperation.
I laugh. I cry. I get angry. I feel sad. I am happy. I can go thru a range of emotions in about 5 minutes flat.
Yvan will tell you that 5 minutes feels like forever!
Time is passing so quickly.
And yet time is passing so slowly.