Monday, August 11, 2008

Today I Feel....

Today I feel....
sad,
anxious,
angry,
and frustrated.
like hiding under a rock.
as though our quest to have a family will never happen.
that the next 3 - 6 months are going to take forever.
unsure if I can bear this wait for even one more day!
glad that tomorrow will come and I might not feel like this anymore.....right?!?!?

11 comments:

Ricki said...

Awe girl, I wish I could give you a tiny glimpse of what is yet to come....it is sooo worth even these awful feeling like poop days.
Hang in there!
Thinking of you,
Ricki

Julie said...

You are very close. The next three to six are going to be a breeze! You've already done eight! Do something fun this week that you wouldn't be able to do if you had a baby with you. If all else fails,rally that fur family around you and hold on tight.

sandi said...

HEY! I totally know how you feel. I'm feeling a little less like that now that Meg's orphanage adventures consume my every thought...

BUT, you CAN get through it, and hopefully tomorrow will be WAY better.

HEY... let's get together ok????????

Sandi

Anonymous said...

I am sorry Rana. I don't know how it feels, but I can imagine. It can't take 6 more months for sure! What about a backwards ticker? Looks like it worked for Ricki! I am thinking of you as i do so often. There is a baby out there for you.....
Natasha

Danielle and Nick said...

What a terrible way to feel - I'm sorry Rana. Ricki is right though. If there was some way to give you a tiny glimpse of what is to come, you'd easily make it through the next little while knowing how over joyed you'll feel and how worth it all this waiting is. I hope you hear something soon! Keep hanging in there!

--Danielle

CinnamonOpus said...

Aw honey, it's such a drag, this waiting thing. You're going to have your ups and downs, just like everyone. And you know what? That's ok. It's going to happen. The down times will pass, you just have to ride them out. So do whatever you want that will make you feel better -- a nice bubblebath, or a glass of wine, or go see a movie. Do something good for yourself. You deserve it, and like Julie said, soon enough there will come a time when you won't have the free time to do something nice for yourself very often.

Hugs from us.

Sebrina said...

Rana: I'm sorry that this wait is so hard. I'm sending all the strength that I have to get you through the next few months.

Dianne said...

It's so hard, Rana. I hope you're having a bit (or a lot!) of a better day today. The waiting sucks, but once this bit is over, you'll be horrified at the idea that any other length of waiting would have brought you a different child. It will happen - hang in there.

In the meantime - there is the rest of life to look forward to. If Ricki's backwards ticker doesn't suit you, you could always count down to something else... like the start of the next season of Lost... or even my birthday! ;)

(If this is just annoying, feel free to blog-smack me. Just don't hit for real - I bruise easliy.)

Rhonda said...

Is there room for me under your rock?

Shannon and Dan said...

Sending {{{BIG HUGS)}} your way. I hope you are feeling better today.

See you thursday :)
Shannon

Anonymous said...

hey Rana, hope you are having a better day today,
hugs.....Shauna