This Week's Quotable Quote

Remember when I did this.

Well, I am not doing it again. I am too tired and emotionally exhausted.

Although that is probably the best time to do it...but I think Project 365 covers it really.

What I really liked was when my yoga teacher would send us daily inspirations to get us thru the 40 days.

It kept me going!

I think I will do something something similar here except I will call it "This Week's Quotable Quotes" which I am totally ripping off of a weekly email I get from our local running club. Hmmmmmm...I should start running again....

Anyways,

Here is this week's "Quotable Quote".

"Challenges are what makes life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful."

- Joshua J. Marine

Don't Give Up

That is what everyone is telling me.

I haven't of course. But at the time...when I heard those words again "Sorry, we don't have anything for you this time" all the air rushed out of my body like someone had hit me in the stomach with a 1000lb weight.

I could literally hear the tinkling of my heart as it broke into teeny, tiny shards. It was screaming at me...."I can't do this anymore"...while my brain was saying..."you will get thru this, we will get thru this" oh wait...that was Yvan whispering in my ear as I cried into my pillow! I love that man...he is the best!

I have had so many people post on my blog and send me emails and messages...it is unbelievable...how can I not go on when we have so much support and love...honestly you are all so amazing...it really renews your faith in the goodness of people.

Crystal wrote: "Stay strong however you can and when you can't stand this journey, sit... and then crawl and just keep moving forward day by day... hour by hour... minute by minute...Don't give up! You have come so far!!"

I have definitely hit the crawling stage...but bloody knees and all I will keep going.

I asked in my last post "When does one say enough?"

I'll tell you when!

When we walk thru the airports doors, into the arms of our family and friends, with our wee one finally with us forever.

Adversity

The end of this week will mark our 15th month of waiting for our referral. I am trying not to think about it. I am keeping myself busy with yoga, movies, eating, re-runs of Felicity, reading, booking a holiday etc.

Is it working? Ummmmm...hmmmmm...welllllllllll......uuuuhhhhh....

Anyways, I never dreamed in a million years we would see 15 months and maybe a couple more.

It is what is! While I would like to be able to control everything in my life, it has become painfully obvious I can't. So, I yogatize - it helps in doses - so does slipping away for 2 hours to see a movie (Go see Slumdog Millionaire! Do it! Now!)

Last night we watched the Grammy's (overall a little boring except for Paul...excuse me...SIR Paul McCartney -how cool was that!) and there was a performance by T.I. (who?) and Justin Timberlake (hottie J.T.) and something T.I (who? I'm so getting old) said in his rap stuck with me.

"Adversity builds character,
Character takes you places money can't."

I believe adversity takes all shapes and forms - my adversity is piddly to what others face (go see Slumdog Millionaire - Get! Go!) but it is mine!

If I didn't have character before I have it now!

So, 15 months here we come!!! Please don't be sad for us, and don't feel bad for us...this is our adversity and we'll take it. If it is the worst thing we ever have to face...well, then we'll be just fine. All we ask is when you see us - give us big hugs, the kind that take your breath away - we could use that :)

Much love