I've decided Mondays will be the day I talk about PADS.
I know I am not the only one to go thru it. This is evident by some of the comments on my last post and from emails I have received from other post adoptive mothers and bio moms too.
Thank you so much for reaching out and letting me know I wasn't alone. If I haven't emailed you back yet, I will! I promise.
Today my friend Claudia reminded me about this article - it seems even Melissa Faye Greene went through post adoption depression and if she can then so can anyone.
There are people who will not understand what I am going through and that is o.k. There are some who probably won't like that I am blogging about this and that is o.k. too.
I know before our adoption when I read blogs about people talking about what life was like after their kids came home I was quick to say in my head "But your kids are home! You should be enjoying this time." Little did I know how hard the transition can be. It was those blogs, those posts, I should have been reading even more so in order to gain experience from others about what life is like when you come home.
I want to be clear here. It is not Ade. He is a sweetheart. He is beautiful. He is going through so much and I am aware of how hard this uprooting is for him. I haven't forgotten that fact at all.
What I do know for sure is this - I can't help him through this tough and emotional transition if I don't recognize what is happening to me. I need to don my oxygen mask first in order to help him get his on.
Each person's experience will be different. It will come from a different place and for different reasons. Mine comes from 39 years of living a life of my own and only having to worry about making sure I made it through each day ( and in the last 8 years with my husband of course) and to suddenly have a wee little dude who needs me to help navigate the world...well it is overwhelming.
And it's o.k. I know it will pass with time.
So, Manic Mondays will be the day I talk about how I am feeling. Because after all, aren't Mondays the most manic day of all?