I seemed to have lost my hope! I had it a while ago but it seems to have disappeared...
I keep thinking this is some kind of joke - like Ashton Kutcher is going to appear and say "Ha ha ha, you have been Punk'd" (with my luck it would probably be Howie Mandel instead -ugh!)
What does one do when approaching the 14 month mark of waiting? And that is just since our dossier landed in Ethiopia - in reality we have been waiting much longer!!! Could someone please tell me because I am running out of ideas.
I don't blame my hope for packing its bags and hitting the road - I haven't been much fun to be around lately. I would take a hike too if I could - just to get away from the torturous thoughts my brain keeps throwing out at me.
I have been trying to stay away from the computer this week - hence the lack of posts. Oh and I had the flu for the last couple of days too...ya, fun hey!
I am trying to think of ways to keep myself busy for the next couple, three weeks. Our agency rep has gone to Ethiopia this week and will hopefully be bringing back referrals. We weren't given any hope that ours would be part of the next batch. I am trying to prepare myself for the upcoming Pity Party (remember my last one) that will likely ensue as we watch families get referrals. We were told to be prepared to wait up to 18 months! There I said it! I have been avoiding it...like if I didn't say it, it might not come true. And maybe it won't, maybe it will happen sooner but since my hope has left I am having a hard time being positive. Throw in the new court procedures the Ethiopian Government just put in place and well...you get the point.
Aaaaaaah! This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life!
So, anyways, I have lost my hope! If you find it - could you please tell it to come home.
I miss it!