Thursday, December 10, 2009

Bah Humbug or Deck the Halls???

It's that time of the year again.

Christmas time!!!

I am feeling a bit Scrooge and Tiny Tim

or

Grinch and Cindy-Lou Who

or

Mr. Potter and George Bailey

about it all.

I go back and forth between being excited about it and wanting to put up all of our decorations

to

just wanting to crawl in bed and pretend it all isn't happening!!!

Bah Humbug!!!! I say to myself when I think about putting up the tree.

Because I can't stand the fact there won't be a wee one with us on Christmas morning yet again.

We won't have Baby Ade home to open presents with.

I found the most adorable pull sled ever -

I keep picturing him in it and Yvan pulling it but I just can't bring myself to buy it...not yet anyways.

Deck the Halls I find myself singing too though as I get caught up in the Christmas spirit.

I really do love Christmas.

It's not the gift giving but the idea of family and friends getting together to celebrate each other...sitting down for a family meal with all of your loved ones or gathering at someone's house for a glass or two of cheer!

It is what I love the most about the holiday season - and all these things we will be doing.

But part of my heart is sad - I hope this year will be the last year we have a kiddie free Christmas but a teeny weeny piece of me worries it won't...silly I know but there it is.

So, if you see me and I say "Bah Humbug" wait a minute and I will probably sing you a song of the season too!

19 comments:

lyndsey&kevin said...

I hear ya!! It is a wierd feeling of happy/sad. I feel it too. I am happy not to be still waiting for a referral though!!!! Come on court dates!!!!!

L

K_I_T_ said...

Today is a Bah Humbug day for me...but seeing as we had a court date at least I suppose I should be Decking the Halls. Im hoping you will hear of your courtdate soon. I am so unmotivated today that I went back to bed after getting J on the bus, laid down just to check email, and got sleepy..but was to unmotivated to go turn out the lights!!! So I dozed off with the lights on...would wake up, and get irritated that the lights were on, but still did nothing about it!!! Definatly a bah humbug day here.........

Stephanie said...

Here's hoping you get some good news to help get you into the Christmas spirit!! Love that sled....I say buy it!!!

Steph :-)

hazel said...

Rana, my Christmas wish for you is to have cleared court before the 25th so you can relax and enjoy your son as part of your family celebrations. Even if you haven't passed court by then, perhaps you could still include Ade someway - a photo ornament for example? Maybe you've already done something like that (I haven't done that for Biset yet and time is running out).

The run up to Christmas is always harder than the actual day when you're surrounded by loving family. I hope your Bah Humbug days are few and far between. If not, we all understand why not.

hugs

Chad, Laura and Sara said...

bitter-sweet I am sure - but this WILL be the last Christmas - I'm sure of it! Darn those court dates - where are they???

Always thinking of you,
Laura

Ramona said...

I am praying for a court date before- our friends passed on the 24th one year! I want you to DANCE around that tree celebrating that on paper, Ade is your boy!

Ramona
And I also hope that any day now we can leave to check in on sweet little Ade...

D Dae said...

Ditto what Hazel said so perfectly.

{hugs}

Tova said...

You are so cool! I, also say, buy the sled. If I cross my finger and toes and hold my breath all at the same time do you think that would help get your court date?

Brendan and Mary said...

What did we call it? Adoption-induced schizophrenia perhaps? This will definitely be your last year without children. I am so hoping and praying that you pass court by the 25th so that there will be no mixed feelings at all. We should go for a glass of Christmas cheer soon! Rather than our traditional chai, how does some cheer sound next Wednesday?

Rana and Yvan said...

Mary, I am totally down for some Christmas Cheer next Wednesday!!!

Should we bring the boys - Yvan likes Christmas Cheer too :)

turgeonexpansion said...

Buy the sled, it'll make you smile :) And next winter, you'll be saying "kid, what did I feed you, my arms are killing me from pulling you around, LOL"!!

Connie said...

That's an adorable sled! I'd say buy it, because later on it might not be available!

I sure hope you pass court soon! For our first adoption we passed on Dec 24th (07). What a great Christmas present that was!

Whatever day it happens for you it will be reason to celebrate!

Jess said...

I'm with you!! And do I hear a wednesday get together?! :) Anything to bring a little more cheer to this Christmas for sure!
Have you decorated yet? That did help me some...

sharonsal said...

Hi Rana,
I too am in the Bah Humbug spirit. Just is not Christmas for me this year as all my family live at least 5 hrs away and will not be together at all for the holidays. I have to work Christmas day. I wasn't even going to put up a christmas tree but then ended up doing a small table top one. I also say buy the sled. You may not find another like it and you will need it for sure next year. I also say celebrate your last year of Christmas as a couple. You won't ever be doing it again.
I was a lucky one and did have a court date December 10th but will not know anything until next week. I can't imagine the wait you are having to endure. My adoption has been going well so far(knocking on wood). My Dossier was done September 7/08, recieved in Ethiopia January 27/09 and I had a Referral September 11/09 of a 5 year old little girl named Senayit. Next Christmas will absolutely be the best. My Christmas wish for you is to have a court date set this week, all finallized and travelling by March 2010. Good Luck

Sharon

Rana and Yvan said...

Hi Sharon and welcome!

Hope you hear about your successful court date next week!

emily and mike said...

I don't blame you for feeling like that one bit!
Soon very soon Ade will be home!!!

And that sled is ADORABLE! I love it!

Littleone said...

Oh Rana, I hope you can find some Christmas cheer and it comes in the form of a successful court date.

Donna

Janice said...

Rana, I hope you don't have too many Bah Humbug feeling days but rather many days of sharing the good cheer days. May this be your last Christmas without Ade - I'm so waiting for good news from you.

I love that sled. I hope you get. We have an old sled that my husband's parents gave us that is similar. It's also made of wood but painted red. My boys are too big for it now but it's in our basement waiting for the next one. I bought a sheepskin rug from Ikea for the sled and that always kept the kiddies warm. I'm hoping I can use it again next winter.

sharla said...

I know that until they are in your arms, there is a part of you that fears the worst. I suspect that this will be your very last Christmas without the pitter patter of little feet. Perhaps you should start making lists for planning out how Easter is going to be this coming year...a first holiday celebration with Ade.

Any news on the paperwork? (if not, I bet I know what you want for Christmas!)