I am feeling a bit Scrooge and Tiny Tim
Grinch and Cindy-Lou Who
Mr. Potter and George Bailey
about it all.
I go back and forth between being excited about it and wanting to put up all of our decorations
just wanting to crawl in bed and pretend it all isn't happening!!!
Bah Humbug!!!! I say to myself when I think about putting up the tree.
Because I can't stand the fact there won't be a wee one with us on Christmas morning yet again.
We won't have Baby Ade home to open presents with.
I found the most adorable pull sled ever -
I keep picturing him in it and Yvan pulling it but I just can't bring myself to buy it...not yet anyways.
Deck the Halls I find myself singing too though as I get caught up in the Christmas spirit.
I really do love Christmas.
It's not the gift giving but the idea of family and friends getting together to celebrate each other...sitting down for a family meal with all of your loved ones or gathering at someone's house for a glass or two of cheer!
It is what I love the most about the holiday season - and all these things we will be doing.
But part of my heart is sad - I hope this year will be the last year we have a kiddie free Christmas but a teeny weeny piece of me worries it won't...silly I know but there it is.
So, if you see me and I say "Bah Humbug" wait a minute and I will probably sing you a song of the season too!