If A Tree Falls in the Forest....

...does anyone hear it?

Maybe more so than what we are hearing.

Still nothing.

No clue what the test is/was.

Medical appointment was yesterday but still nothing.

So we don't know it if is a little something or a big something!

On the MP side of things, they seem to be more "understanding" should we say.

We have a meeting with him....so we'll shall see soon enough what unfolds.

Honestly, I do not have one shred of sanity left...

Not one!

I hope no one of importance reading this blog judges me based on that little nugget of information I have shared.

I feel I have earned the right to say my sanity is gone.....yours would be too.

This is all so redonkulous!

That's right, I said it -REDONKULOUS!

Confession Friday

I confess I am listening to Christmas music this morning while I work..."Pink Martini" singing beautiful Christmas Classics.

I confess my husband and I are addicted to "Mad Men" - we are savouring Season 4 because it is a long time to Season 5.

I confess to feeling better today because yesterday someone gave me permission to let my worries go for a while and it was needed because I wouldn't give myself permission and it was crippling me.

I confess to being proud of knowing some very strong, brave women who speak their truths even when they are doubtful anyone is reading or cares.

I confess to still being in my pajamas while I am working.

I confess it is frickin' cold here today (-25, -33 with the windchill) and I wish I lived somewhere warm with a beach right now.

I confess I am going to lunch today with 2 of my co-workers who I don't get to see because I work at home now and I am looking forward to it.

I confess I made my first ever stew yesterday and it turned out pretty good...used bison meat and red wine in the ingredients and let it simmer in the crock pot all day..mmmmmmm!

I confess to not going to the gym very much in the last week and when I went yesterday I felt stronger for it.

I confess I have finally come to the realization "the best laid schemes of mice and men/ go oft awry" is actually true and I don't like it one bit.

I confess the above realization has humbled me and made me realize not all is within my control.

I confess I could go on and on today as I feel like confessing but I will stop now.

The Sound of Silence

That is what we are hearing....the sound of silence.

We know Nairobi has requested further medical testing or clarification (take your pick) but they won't tell us what...and we have asked..believe me we have asked.

If you look up vague in the dictionary you will see a picture of CHC Nairobi!

We have asked our MP to help us - to say he is unwilling is an understatement! I am still scratching my head trying to figure out how an elected official dismisses one of its constituents at the drop of a hat.

All we want to know is what test they are doing. It's not to much to ask.

Our agency doesn't get to see the medical instructions but we are hopeful the immigration doctor will tell them what is needed sometime this week or early next when they take our boy for his appointment.

We are fearful it is a sputum testing which takes 8 weeks to get results....8 weeks! If this is the case it will be sometime in 2011 before we get to bring him home....a fact which has me absolutely losing my mind...

I have been asking a lot of Why? questions lately.

Why is this happening to him?

Why is this happening to us?

Why does no one seem to want to help us get answers? (and by this I mean our government officials)

Why, after all we have been through, does there seem to be more shit being dumped on us?

Many scenarios have crossed our mind as to what we can do, but until we know what test they want we can't implement any plan of action.

If anyone has any ideas as to what we can do, we'll take them.

Confession Friday

I confess I am sick...in bed sick with a nasty sore throat and stuffy nose.

I confess I have no energy to write anything because of said sickness.

I confess I am waiting for my hubby to bring me some soup from my favourite restaurant.

I confess I am going back to sleep now.

The Thing is...

....just when we think...

We. can. not. take. another. step.

You, and by that I mean, every single person who reads our blog....

...show your immense love and support!!!

Amazing!!!! It leaves us standing in awe...literally.

So, this week, we are feeling better.

We don't know what extra testing they want done or why.

We are asking lots of questions.

We are reading lots of immigration mumbo jumbo.

We waiting for answers.

I can tell you the Hague Convention is not the most stimulating read...but read it I am...

Also, could CIC make their documents any more difficult to understand - "R117(1)(g)(iii)(B) and R117(3)(e) blah, blah, blah!"

Maybe I will become a consultant on all things adoption and immigration when all this done...or maybe not!

So, we thank you!

For listening.

For offering to write, email, call...

...we might take you up on that offer....

We'll keep you posted.

Confession Friday

I confess we found out today Nairobi wants further medical testing done on our son.

I confess I am confused as to why!

I confess I do not understand the Immigration system and how it works.

I confess it makes me mad our child will not be home with us anytime soon.

I confess I am disappointed in my country, our goverment and how they treat its Canadian Citizens at this moment.

I confess I am not sure I have the energy to go on any longer.