And by inbetween I mean in between the times when we find out information from our agency to the next time we get an update.
The inbetween time is not good on my psyche.
It can be days or even a week or more before we hear something new.
During the inbetween time my brain goes into overdrive...it starts out postively and I am usually very pumped about the news we received (well if it is positive anyways which it was last time we talked to them)...
...but then that little bugger named doubt creeps in!
It starts digging little tunnels in my brain and planting the 'what if' seeds throughout.
Once the 'what if' seeds start to grow they blossom into 'this is never going to happen' stalks....
When the 'this is never going to happen' stalks grow the 'we are going to live a life without kids' beans flourish!
By the time I hit the 'we are going to live a life without kids' phase...well...let just say the garden overflows with salt water...which is never very good for growing things.
I am in the 'what if' stage right now as it has been about 2 days since we have had an update (and ya, two days in my world right = 2 months).
I really can't wait to start planting the 'how will I decorate his room' seeds which will quickly be followed by the 'looking for flights to Ethiopia' stems which eventually leads to the 'we are home with our beautiful son' blossom.
It really is time our garden had at least one beautiful flower growing in it!
