Comfortably Numb

Or is that uncomfortably numb? I guess feeling numb shouldn't feel comfortable but it is better than feeling overwhelmed with grief...which happens -oh boy does it happen.

I feel as though I am walking around with a giant force field over me. I don't feel particularily happy and don't feel exhaustingly sad. I laugh at times, I cry at times but I feel impartial to all of it.

It is as though I am watching my life as if it were a movie...I watch the characters and I think to myself "Wow, what a difficult time they are going thru - I should give them a hug". "Maybe I could fix it and make it all better for them." Then reality hits and I realize -this is MY life. What the...how did we get here?!

What comes to mind is the song "Comfortably Numb" by Pink Floyd

"Hello?
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone at home?
Come on, Come on, Come on, now,
I hear you're feeling down.
I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again.
Relax.
I'll need some information first.
Just the basic facts.

Can you show me where it hurts?
There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child I had a FEVER My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am.

I have become comfortably numb.
I have become comfortably numb.

O.K.Just a little pin prick.
There'll be no more aaaaaaaaah!
But you may feel a little sick.
Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working, good.
That'll keep you going through the show
Come on it's time to go.

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone.
but I have become comfortably numb."

I wished I was feeling more like this



Sigh - Don't you just love Ben Harper!